Dear Notebook
Yes, I once again find myself short of people to talk to. I guess you are the only ears I have at the moment.
Do you know what it feels like when you are there for someone else, just for their own benefit?
What I mean is, there are so many times where I need to get something off my chest. However, I cannot because that will affect others.
Today, my best friend called. We usually talk about extraordinarily happy things~~ But today was a different situation. Plagued by distrust, I had to listen to the story being told to me.
That was fine and all, but I myself had things on my mind I wanted to tell also...However I could not since the phonecall was technically theirs and I had to listen.
This has happened to me so many times...I hope you can empathise...when you need to tell someone something but never get the chance because the situation does not allow. I guess I just wish I could have a pair of ears which will listen, understand and empathise with my words...
That is all notebook, thank you for listening.
Sincerely Yours`
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Perfection...
Dear Notebook,
There are so many things in a person which makes them beautiful. But no-one can be perfect. I think everyone accepts that.
So when someone, an extremely good friend of yours gets angry because you didn't know that they didn't have a test yesterday, it really bugs me.
My friend is in a test week, extremely busy. I tried to leave them alone for as much as possible so they can get some quality study. The complication occurs here, as this morning they received a text from someone they barely talk to, wishing them good luck in their Chinese test.
Prior to this, all I knew was that it was their test week, and that they had 4 tests for the remainder of the week. To be condescendingly put down because I did not wish them good luck while someone else did makes me boil inside. It is like I should know every single thing about their life, every single minute detail and if I don't address it, it is purely my fault.
I am not perfect, don't ever expect me to be. You should be friends with who I am, not who you want me to be. I will not remember every single test you have in your entire life and wake up at 12:01am every morning to tell you good luck. To be honest, I don't think you even need my luck.
That is all notebook, thank you for listening.
Sincerely Yours`